I expected it to appear one day. A moment of hatred followed by a moment of bliss that would continue on as the pain once did. The phrase “It’ll get better” taken to heart, to mean that one day it would suddenly be okay. But that’s not how it works. Nothing appears without cause, without work. It’s a long journey of discovery with no real end. There is always something new to feel. Pain replaced by the joy of being able to smile even through the darkest of moments. Self-love is not a destination, it is a journey that one must choose to embark on when the pain leaves nowhere else to turn, and to stay on when the moments feel so good it hurts. I choose to find the bliss whether in the middle of a meadow or the depths of the sea of pain.
by Abbey Grace